Can I just go on a mini rant about guys , ? Yeah ok„„, Soooo, i had a convo with my BFF a whole long time ago like half a year ago bout how tired I was about guys , like I was done with all men of all sorts, and that I really enjoyed being single and spending all my time and energy on my son, and well for more than a year now I’ve been doing just that, absolutely no one but my son and I , no dates not even texting, when Ment no energy I ment it all, well until recently, I met some one , who I can honestly say infatuation is the proper term, yes I was infatuated with him, and this was even before our first date, but the first date just made it so much more of a , to quote Carrie Bradshaw, zsa zsa zsu, and he’s so incredible and the vibes were amazing. And yes I know it’s crazy, but I’ve never ever ever ever ever ever have vibed with anyone on the level that I did with Him. SOOO why him, what made him different. Idk , I really really had my mind set on no more guys until I was maybe 23 /24/25, so now I’m just stuck in a place like ok I know he doesn’t want anything because he’s said it various of times like multiple of times, but I mean I didn’t want any of this, nothing what so ever, I just really didn’t expect to actually want to see where anything could go with anyone anymore until him. Now I catch my self thinkkng, hmm well maybe I do , but I’m also scared and that’s why I’m so defensive and I don’t know what to say or do, or should I just let him go before I catch any more feelings , yes I say any more, because I must admit I’ve caught some already, than end up como el dicho ” como el Perro sin las dos tortas” And ignore the Zsa zsa zsu 😔
I might be too young to settle down and marry, but I’m definitely too old to be playing anymore games. I’m too old to just be talking to someone, too old to not know what’s really going on, and too old to be entertaining somebody with no intentions of making it work. At this age, I’m only interested in consistency, stability, respect and loyalty. And I want to hear someone tell me that they love me and know they goddam mean it.
Can I just have a boyfriend please ? Lol